Saturday, August 15, 2015

I will be a grandma one day and when I am...

I want to remember these days that are "so hard" or "overwhelming." I want to remember these days, not so I can look back and moan but because I will be a grandma one day. My kids will have little kids who wake them up all hours of every night and 5 a.m. sharp. They too will look in the fridge at 5 p.m. saying, "Oh no! I don't know WHAT we are having for dinner." And when I come to visit them I want to be the grandma who takes a blanket and a toddler or two to sit on the porch and watch the sun rise. I want to be the grandma who brings dinner over "just because". I want to be a grandma who tells bedtime stories and builds forts. And most of all I want to be a grandma who opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is always on my tongue. (Proverbs 31:26)

How is she already this big? Did I miss anything?

She is beautiful. When did she get so big? I wish I could write like all the other blogger moms, who captivate audiences, to tell how the wind is playing with her strands of hair. I didn't even take a picture. Instead I take another deep breath of the rushing wind around us. I watch her walk next to me carrying the mail up the driveway. And I soak it in: her smile and want for independence. Because one day she won't be running and shrieking down the driveway; she won't need me to buckle her in her car seat or fix her hair. She will have her own driveway with her own car to drive down it. At this thought I tear up and pick her up (because I still can) holding her for the rest of the walk up the driveway. "Would you like Momma to paint your toenails?", I ask. "Oh yes! I want blue." There are many things I can't remember lately. But this little girl, My little big girl with blue toenails, I won't forget.

Monday, February 9, 2015

"Are you an optimist, pessimist, or realist?" I find I'm getting tired of this question. For a time, not that long ago, I called myself a realist. That is until my smart husband made me think about it and come to the conclusion that the question that should be asked is, "Are you trusting God?"
Are you labeling your attitude because you want an excuse to have an attitude?
Are you resting in God for the things you need and being joyful for the things you have?
Are you trusting Him to answer your prayers, watch over your children, and care about the world we live in?

Saturday, February 7, 2015

trite annoyances a blessing?

Matthew 16:26 "For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul?" 
We get so comfortable in our own little worlds- the little world we create for ourselves with all of our comfort foods and comfort things- that when we have trying times our just trite annoyances we raise our voices to God: "Do you love me?". Perhaps He is blessing you with these moments. Because He loves you He doesn't want you to lose your soul.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Reminders for today:

Do not be the Eeyore in your child's life. "I can't do anything right." "I'm always dropping things." "Momma doesn't fit into any of her clothes anymore." Not only is this depressing to their spirit as well as yours but you are giving your child something to emulate even when you think it's ok because you're only talking about yourself. But self denigration is just as easy to pick up on as your cheerfulness. And which would you rather see your child emulate? Think of how you use your tongue.  Is it to degrade someone (including yourself) or is it to encourage them? My take away: Stop thinking about yourself and how everything effects you. Think more about how things effect your child (and husband).  How will you show them the proper Christian response?

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

v. 19 is circled in my Bible

"The Lord by wisdom founded the earth; By understanding He established the heavens." (Proverbs 3:19) Why, therefore, do you live in fear? As if the Lord's wisdom was insufficient to last to our day. His wisdom is still founding the earth and establishing the heavens. He uses that wisdom without our oversight. Are we then to live in fear and unbelief because we cannot see the end goal? Our minds cannot fathom the heaven he is establishing for us. For us. Keep your faith with the knowledge that His wisdom is stretching beyond us, beyond our children and granchildren. "The curse of the Lord is on the house of the wicked, but He blesses the home of the just." (v. 33)

Monday, August 26, 2013

Got coins in my pocket and the baby on my hip.

Before now I never realized the security I place in having a vehicle. When I want to go somewhere I hop in the car and go. I think, "I'm out of eggs", or "coffee sounds good" and in just a few minutes I'm there. These past two weeks has shown me what it's like for people who don't have this option. Public transportation makes one uncomfortable. It's so...public. It's not your own, you didn't wash and vacuum it...nor can you wash and vacuum your fellow passangers. Going anywhere takes planning, extra time, and lots of walking. Nor could I carry A, diaper bag, stroller, grocery bags, and a coffee cup. Riding the bus takes a little more patience and a little more love.