Thursday, January 15, 2009

As a frail child of God I try to rely on my own strength. I can look through my life and see the little reminders of the previous oxymoronic statement. Find strength in God not yourself. When we are weak, He is strong. When we are strong, HE is stronger. No matter the trial and difficulty, it is from God, and He doesn't give us more than we can handle.

Friday Donna Borger was told she has cancer. She went to the doctor yesterday and this is what doc said, "I do not know what they (the radiologist) were looking at, but their report is a textbook description of gastric cancer...Donna has no cancer. I examined her carefully and completely and she is perfectly clean."

Last night I dreamed I got the church e-mail from Bill Izard and this is what it said, "Joshua went to Little Rock for his chemo and bone taps. The doctor ran the tests and found no cancer, not a trace." You may smile and say, oh that's a nice dream. But God showed me through this dream not to look through my own eyes. My eyes see the suffering and seeming hopelessness, God sees His plan. I see the immediate and God sees the future. I see suffering, God sees His plan. I don't like to see people despondent, but I must remember that God and I just have different definitions of what is best for people. I cannot sit here and state what another's fate will be. I can only pray and trust. The trials of this mortal body should not bring us down but lift us up. Lift us up to Christ. So when I sit here thinking, "that's just the way it's going to be, God will do what HE wants." Well, maybe what He wants is for us to pray without ceasing and trust without faltering.